Credits to: Amanda Inez for the lovely pattern, my coffee and, of course, 

my procrastination which lead me to doing this. Thank you.

This phrase has been written on a sticky note posted on my desk for a month now. As much as my stuff are, my mind (as well) is like an attic full of clutter. It's messy. For 2 months, it has been a series of chaos and it is not easy to get by. Emotions, stress, confusion, feeling lost, giving up, burn out... etc. I got too much negativity that wasn't healthy for me. It was leading me to withdrawal from reality. I wanted to run from my academic and clinic requirements for I was almost giving up... Actually, I was ALREADY giving up. These are the cause of my terrible burn out. Anxiety took the best of me and I constantly feel inferior and inadequate - believing that I just wanted to escape from it. What's worse is that when I thought I was getting myself on track again there goes a shitty hit of bad luck, then gone are my hope and expectations to get things done. It made me very downhearted and exhausted. I wanted things to get better but it seemed as if circumstances won't let me to.

And so I tried to put that up on my desk, to see it everyday and to, hopefully, remind myself that I could get back up if I try to declutter what's in my head, even though I'm not sure how and when. Maybe a new year could be a fresh new start for me so started to write a 'School Goals' or more explained as 'Things I want to remind myself when it comes to school' type of thing. In my list are study and work habits that I want to develop and reminders that when it gets tough I should not forget to pray. I really hope that I could get by and create more positivity in my life for the year ahead.

Praying for a great 2016!!