Have you ever gone off from the place that was once like your whole world. Unconsciously doing it, but wanting it anyway. Like having your old friends from childhood but suddenly you get the chance to be with  the cool kids so you chose to be with the cool kids just for a change in your life. Of course being with the cool kids gets you anywhere. It gets to define you the same definition to the people around you. And in the end you lose yourself because you weren't too mindful of who you really are. You became like everyone else.

I never thought 'for a change' is a big word. For a change means leaving you comfort zone, but somehow it's also leaving who you are. You slowly grow up from the things that define who you are. However, you're out of the comfort zone thing doesn't really lead you to bad things. It's like leading you to some place that may or may not be for you.. may or may not BE YOU.

What I'm feeling is like being in a place that gave me joy, attention and everything else but I feel stuck here. I feel like I've left who I am somewhere.. someplace I wasn't able to look back. I feel like I've totally lost who I am. Been covered, been fed, been satisfied by things or feelings again and again that overwhelmed me to the point that I became tired of it. Tired of feeling the same stuff that isn't me. I just want to stop for awhile and find myself somewhere. To reconnect to who I really am and what I want. I'm tired of being like everyone else. For this time, I'm gonna let go expectations. I'm just gonna be me and behind it are all the things I really want. Those simple things that make my heart complete. I think that's the most important thing in my lifetime.

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